Is this the same child that came to live with us 7 years ago??? When I was 16 years old I taught the 2 & 3 year olds at church and there was a beautiful little girl in my class named Sarah…..I loved her so much and I knew then that someday I would name my daughter Sarah…….but since we were adopting that was out unless we changed her name but I did get my Sarah……..and she is so beautiful and sweet……but……lol there was a day when……..oh my goodness…..she was beautiful but anything but sweet unless it was to other people. I look back over the last 7 years and see how much she has healed. When she came to live with us we had three good weeks and then ……..she tore up everything and ripped her door off of its hinges. She would scream for hours on end. Everyday when I picked her up from school the first thing I did was look and see if her teacher walked her out to me. Stealing food, did I say screaming??? Trying to hurt everyone, pooping in her room, peeing everywhere ………wanted to kill us and started hiding knives……
Now I look at her……is this really the same child? We were told that we may have to institutionalize her. We were told that she would probably not heal. Is this really the same child and my answer is yes and no…..it is the same body and the same beautiful face, but it’s not the hurt, damaged, scared little girl that came to live with us 7 years ago. She has healed so much. She loves me now. She tells me that when she thinks about me that it makes her heart feel funny………RAD reactive attachment disorder is a terrible thing and as we get caught up in the day to day behaviors it is hard and we get tired. We are told there is no hope, BUT there is hope. We know a man that can…..His name is Jesus and through Him all things are possible. It is through Him that all four of our kids that have RAD have healed or is healing. I give Him all glory.
I started on this a few weeks ago and I didn’t know that it had posted until I actually was able to get on line tonight. So I am sorry for those that only read part of what was on my heart………..